Word of Forgiveness

Hey dad,
Do you remember all the ways you taught me sad and how to get mad?
The important times to me that obviously meant less to you?
Do you remember the little boy that just wanted to do everything as long as it involved you?

Hey dad,
Do you remember all the events that you missed?
Probably not because you were too drunk and too busy taking hits.
But that never mattered to me because all I longed for was to feel as if I was in your heart's grip.

Hey dad,
Do you remember teaching me how to be a man?
Yeah me neither; it would have been easier if you just took time to stand.
Oh and the way you taught me to provide?
By smoking away our home, forcing me to sleep in my car at night?
At sixteen I had to work full time; why?
Just to be homeless, teaching me how to cry?
All I wanted was for you to celebrate me during graduation time.
But you chose the selfish path, tried to overdose, making me fight the joy in thinking you were gone at last.
Hey dad, this is me saying that's all in the past.

Because I have the one true Father, ah He is full of love and has taught me honor.
He has deemed me good and called me chosen.
In the intricacies of my heart He has woven,
Forgiveness, grace, and mercy.
All included in the love that He has shown me.

So dad,
As this last angry tear falls to the ground
I am releasing this resentment, this song of hatred has been playing too loud.

I love you.
I will pray daily for you.
I forgive you.